X: Super Procrastinator al ataque!

Friday, October 26, 2007

Super Procrastinator al ataque!Super Procrastinator



I procrastinate all the time. I don’t know why. Sometimes it’s sheer laziness, the rest of the time ADD ways. I forget to do stuff, and it doesn’t show on my mental landscape till later. Like it will take me months to do anything because I forget about it.



For example the camera I bought in April which I’m regretting, not the camera but how I paid for it. I signed up for a credit card which I used to buy the camera and it’s brutal, I should have taken the instalment plan offered by the camera people. Impulse again. Of course I always keep forgetting the payments and getting hit by late ones. Urgh.


Anyway, the camera, Pentax k10d, on any picture I take, there are two spots. When I first saw them, i thought it must be dust on the sensor, and used the sensor cleaning all the time. But nothing, I have to think it’s the sensor itself cause in all these months, those spots haven’t shifted. Anyway, I waited for 2 months to write, then waited again, then they told me what to do, then I waited. Why did I wait so long? The usual mix of forgetting, then when I did remember, just staring and my body ignoring me. So do it. Well do it, go on, do it. Then I go off and do something else. It’s like I’m paralyzed by fear or something. Like my physical brain laughs at my mental self, “Tell it to the hand” and ignores me. I don’t command power, not even in my own mind.


I really don’t know why it’s so difficult to do stuff. When I have a good day or am on Ritalin, I do stuff even when I’m reluctant. Adrenalin also makes me do things. Though that’s not healthy. Adrenalin used to get me going and pick me in the seat of my pants but now it’s like I developed a resistance to it. It doesn’t get me going like I used to.


Anyway, I managed to call and find out what to do with my camera. Finally. It was triggered by reading a magazine review on different cameras, mine included which gave me the kick in the pants I needed (adrenaline rush) and sorted it out. Now next to send it. I hope it doesn’t take long to do.

Which reminds me of the other stuff I have to send by post and have left hanging for months. For me it doesn’t seem like such a long time ago, it feels like weeks but I think about it and realize it was more than 4 months ago. ARgh .